Saturday, April 14, 2007 ' Saturday, April 14, 2007 ♥
iie sometimes wonder, should i hate you for breaking my heart & left me with my broken heart . or shouldd iie wishh ue all the best for ue & her, or shouldd ii win ure heart back .i tear without knowingg . my heart ache every once i dont see you smile . & feeling troubled .its funny somehow that you broke my heart & i still love you . love is .. so ridiculous sometimes that no one could even answer the questions thats botheringg one .even though my heart is so broken by you, but im still loving you with my shattered pieces of broken love .you come back saying you still love me but its because you're left with no choice .& no turningg back . is that an excuse ? since you've already left me, why come back saying you still love me when SHE is the one you love?i dont even get it .. sigh .. sometimes, how i wished, you could love me just one last time .. just that last time .. that last hug from you .. that last love ... i'd treasure it like the bbest moment of my life ... my broken shattered pieces of heart, can still love you .like you'll never know. i thought you were my hope, my everything, but now i know, its all a lie ..ure forever was a lie to me .. why waste ur money smsing me .saying you'd never leave me, & i gave you hope . when its all a lie ? do you really ever loved me before ? iie wonder ....i know my heart can never be fixed ... i know you'd never come back to me ...i know you'd always be my friend ...so shouldd i smile for you're still my friend.or should i cry for this is gnna be forever friends ?i sometimes feel silly & how foolish i am to even wait for you.even though i know its totally impossible for us to be back together .but it hurts so much when im gnna give up somethingg i thought it was my everything& something i've always wanted & yearning for ..maybe i looked fine to you, & always happy. leading life normally like usual .but no one knows how much im still hurting inside .how much im crying for you . although some people say its not worth it .. but can i even control ? if only i can .. i'd have let you go .. u were my everything ...but now, im left with nothingg .. even friends had disappointed me ...how i wished hearts could be mended .. 
you first said you'll never go back to ur past ..but u did went back to her afterall ..then you came back again, saying you'll regret ...& till now, im still waiting .but nothingg seemed to have changed ... but i'll still wait..you asked me to wait .. but im not waiting for the sake of you..but for the reason that you stole my heart, without even returning it ..how selfish can you be .. sigh ...i hope you understandd me some day .. i dont really know sometimes whether i should hate her .or should i just wish her all the best, and help you both with the relationship .i thought you were my everything when i had you, but its once again, all a lie .. everything was a lie ... your love, your forever, your promises.all a lie ... i hated you, i loved you ..i've learned ... not to trust guys so much ..cause guys enjoy hurting girls ...if only my heart is as hard as nothing can break it ..if only im still a kid ... that every hurt could cure so easily ..probably, i should count myself lucky enough to have known you ...well .. i've had enough of everything .maybe i shouldn't even appear in your life .maybe its my fault .im sorry .
♥ and its all because of you ,
